Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Culture Shock
It's already been one week since we've returned from Botswana and needless to say, some of us are experiencing quite a bit of culture shock. Life in Philly seems more-or-less normal, but we've come back forever changed. It's hard when you're bursting with stories to tell, but most people just want to change subjects after you said your trip was good. It saddens me that I can't speak in Setswana anymore or say hi to everyone I pass on the street without receiving strange looks. It's also hard to confront the affluence of American society. We've seen such poverty and such wealth in such a short period of time. Princess Marina is probably the best hospital in all of Botswana and HUP has recently reached top 10 in the US, but the disparity between the two is huge. At HUP we have negative pressure rooms instead of open windows, we don't have to use gloves sparingly, and we don't run out of drugs. Patients don't sleep on mats on the ground and we don't have 30:1 nurse to patient ratios (that definitely wouldn't make magnet status!). Part of me wants to respond to all of this by shaking someone silly and yelling, "Stop complaining! You don't realize just how much you have! There are more important things in life!" Another part of me wants to shut out everything I saw in Botswana and go back to life as it was before we left. I suppose the trick is to find a healthy balance. I never want to forget the lessons I learned in Botswana, but I also don't want to shut out American culture so much that I can't share what I've learned and affect it. I don't know how to do this yet, but I guess this is the next adventure and challenge.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Reflections
Monday, August 25, 2008
Community Based Home Care
Since Yana and I are making home visits with the volunteers, they've somewhat modified their approach. Our visits are more focused on disease-related issues rather than the ADL-focused care that volunteers provide. It has been a very humbling experience and what is more astonishing to me is that the volunteers and patients have trusted us to provide care. I have never been in a patient care situation where I was the sole provider. So home visits involve assessment, diagnosis, and treatment! This concept is fairly new to many of us because in our undergraduate nursing education, we're not necessarily responsible for dx and tx (obviously, this is more in the NP or doctor realm of practice). Nonetheless, it has been a very challenging and interesting experience.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Homesick as an astronaut...
(Disclaimer: I have so many nursing-related things to write about, but for now, this is all that's on my mind... I'll write something more substantial soon, I promise.)
In my room tonight, it caught up with me.
That crushing weight of lonliness that I’ve travelled so far to escape. I don’t know how it got here - which airline it flew in on, or how exactly it knew I was living at the University of Botswana graduate student dorms - but it found me tonight. My chest tightened, making breathing difficult as my mind raced to find a comforting thought, some fantasy in which I could take refuge.
It felt like I was rushing to climb a tree, so I could be safe from some dangerous predator that was biting at my ankles - only every branch I grabbed for snapped off in my scramble. I tried to think of my work here, but instead my mind flooded with images of the abject, crushing poverty of my patients and their families. I thought of home, but instead of envisioning the familiar comforts, all I could picture was the vast ocean, cold and dark, that marked the separation between where I was lying and where I wished I could sleep.
I tried to pull back and remember what I’ve been told in every study abroad orientation I’ve ever sat through: This feeling of lonliness is normal, inevitable even. Home sickness? Somehow the term doesn’t fit. I’m not sick, and I don’t necessarily want to go home. I just want to feel, see, taste something familar.
Strangely enough, the only familar thing tonight seems to be this feeling of isolation. I think of moments in Mexico, New Zealand, India - everytime I’ve moved, the lonliness has caught up with me sooner or later. Across time zones, international date lines, hemispheres, it has always found me. Each time it does, it seems to take hold of me with a grip that is even stronger than the time before. I mean - shouldn’t I be an expert by now? Better yet, shouldn’t my previous exposures grant me immunity against this sickness?
I want this tightness to leave my chest, this wave to wash over me, but I know it’s just not that easy. The truth is that it never really gets any easier.
Even when the lonliness greets you like an old, long-lost friend.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Want to help us make a difference?
We've had a wonderful time at this site because it has allowed us to use our creativity and enthusiasm for nursing and community health and channel it into something really meaningful (for us) and useful (for the people who run Kamogelo).
I put together a short video about the center, and about our work and the work we hope to be doing there in the next few weeks. Take a look and tell us what you think!
(View a larger version at YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flT2fya7VWo)
Let me elaborate on some of the things mentioned in the video:
What we've already done:
We've already created a health record form for the children's files, completed physical exams for about a third of the children, and held basic first aid and CPR classes for the teachers and administrators at the center. Tomorrow, we'll return to Kamogelo and conduct more physical exams, as well as provide health education to some of the childrens' parents; In the afternoon we'll tour some of the sustainable community projects that have been coordinated by Father Tony, the man who is responsible for many of the community health sites where we're doing our clinical rotations.
What we hope to do:
We have a lot of projects that we would like to take on before we leave the country at the end of the month.
- First, when school lets out for recess next week, we're going to put together food packages for the most impoverished families of the Kamogelo children. As mentioned in the video, the meals that some of these children receive during the school days may be the only food that these children eat all day. Imagine what would happen if those families are left with one more mouth to feed for three weeks?
- We hope to raise funds to start a few sustainable projects for some of the community members that live around Kamogleo - for example, we hope to buy chickens for some of the adult HIV patients in the area; these would provide both food and a source of income, which are both extremely difficult to come by for the very sick patients.
- We need to buy supplies for the center's volunteer nurse. She comes two or three days a week to address any health issues that the children might have, but as Kamogleo can't afford to supply her even with simple gauze, she is sometimes limited in her ability to treat the children. A recent outbreak of ringworm can attest to this.
- Other identified needs include preventive oral health education and treatment (we'd need toothbrushes, toothpaste, and single-applicator tooth varnish for 150+ children) and a women's health class for the teachers and staff of the center (judging from the many questions about everything from breast cancer to bathing that we received during our first aid talk earlier this week.)
In the next few weeks, we'll be doing some fund raising via paypal. Donations can be made to holshue@nursing.upenn.edu via the paypal website; feel free to donate as little or as much as you would like. Even just a small amount will go a long, long way here.
And of course, we'll keep you updated on our progress. Thanks, everyone!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Poem 2 - "Compression, Bandaged"
his thumb:
the pulp of a blood orange
throbbing, pulsing
in her trembling hands
her calm words coming out
from some other
mind
his infected blood
spilling over her
white white
gloves
his gasps
his eyes clenched squeezing
out this sight
like two swollen fists
on his face
she wrapped
around and around
and around and around
until the red heat
was tamed
into nothing but gauze
into a secret underneath
but the scarlet splashed
dripping
across his chest
it gave her away
and she lifted his elbow
the very simplest of measures
and told him to squeeze
to make pressure
pressure pressure,
to disobey his instincts
but did he even understand her?
and then the doctor
said put him in an ambulance
but he was already gone
so she ran
out
into the parking lot
into the street
past the hoards
the throngs of people
staring
like meerkats
frozen
watching the others out of the corners of their eyes
to know what to do
she yelled
she yelled
but she did not know his name
still she yelled out for him
and then
there he was
his blue overalls
deep purple now,
these from the job
he might never do again
he'd become another one
of the jobless masses
sitting all day
underneath the trees
shooting the breeze
and starving
crushed by some machine
lost: a thumb
the thing that separates us
from all the other animals
somehow tied to wisdom
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
My First Post - A Poem, "A Fence for the Wild"
chibuku - a local alcohol, like beer
thebe- Botswana "cents"
pap- a local maize meal, like grits
Pula- the Botswana currency, money
pula- the Setswana (The local language) word for rain
Turkish Delight - A food which casts a spell on you, from C.S. Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia
"A Fence for the Wild"
my hands have broken
frozen in this heat
they have no electricity
no tools
not even rags to wash with
gray dust is turning everything to ash
the green gone in the leaves
our skin
white and black
is all the color
of under your tongue
mouthes are snapping
like venous fly traps
but empty
these flies are clinging
to our ankles, cheeks,
to inside our ears
they've licked clean the coke cans
swirling in the dirt
around our shins
rolling hills of beer cans, chibuku cartons, chips
all these non-foods
that somehow sustain them
and everywhere, like confetti
crinkling candy wrappers
from the women selling them
on the side of the road
for thebe, only thebe
for a whole day in the sun
Father comes up with that plan after
each other fails
Are they too sick to cook?
To ill to crochet?
Or too content sitting all day
watching the children run
somehow, some magical carousel
around them?
dust devils spinning, disturbing
the carefully combed yards, of dirt
they sweep each morning
backs bent
hunched over like the old women they'll never live to become
Or are they too hungry?
Botswana takes such pride
in their ARVs
and yet
Where is the water
to swallow them?
The pap, the maize
to keep them down?
this sun dries everything
except for the tears
they never arrive
they have gone to where
anywhere
they still bring relief
Here there is no Pula
no pula
and no one remembers the prayers
to call it down
they know the Our Father though
in a language they don't even speak
We hold hands
making some kind of fence
to keep out the wild
to keep in the hope
a wild animal itself
always finding holes
to sneak out from
We must cling tightly
I saw a boy today
raised by a wolf
swooning, moaning in the sun
drool and porrige covering
his chest
wracked, mucous dried black
in his nose
he cannot open his eyes
But what is there to see?
only a mother who raises glasses
more than children
whose barred teeth
look like gaping windows
shut
keeping us
and everyone else
Out.
in this village
donkeys and wheelbarrows
(usually reserved for farms
but in this dead earth
not even cacti are growing)
these wheelbarrows are Trucking
water jugs
Thank God!
and on the side someone has painted
"We are fighting the wrong war"
here
The water is work
it does not quench your thirst, only creates it
I smack my lips
stomach clenching hungry
but what fraction of hours ago
have I eaten, less than they?
i dig
for a granola bar
in the bottom of my bag
and break it into four
peices
so we can go on, together
these angels
to be paid in another lifetime
these people
who walk and pray and clean and cook and wash and cry
for the people who can not
any longer
She holds hers
minutes longer
than the rest of us
gazes at it
like it's Turkish Delight
and slowly licks her fingertips
for every last bit
of sugar
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
The Politics and Pains of Poverty....

This highlights the gross social inequities throughout the world, felt in both the states and abroad. Not to say this sort of thing doesn't happen in the states, internally, but it was especially noticeable here, 9,200 miles away from PA, yet this woman, who supports her four children on 1000 Pula per month (~$166/month!) is the epitome of t
When we arrived, we figured out what we wanted to order and then i was responsible (that being a relative term, cuz i had a LOT of fun!) for taking Lewo, the youngest girl, and Tato, the only boy, to the playpen where they could jump, slide, "drive cars", play foosball, and just pl

I was so impressed with how composed and how fun Kwasabo (pictured left) was, the middle child of Hilde's.
After eating full entrees, and desserts, and after yoinking 2 balloons for Lewo (she wanted red) and Tato (he wanted yellow!), we parted and left for the dorms (we spent a good 3 hours with the family. and when we parted, they all smiled enthusiastically, as if in anxious anticipation for our next meeting at the playpen). We all thanked Jod

Ranting time: So, what do i say about the Wealthy Institutions of the West. This gross act of disparate living within the greater systems established is sickening to me. Literally, living directly behind students, Hilde and her family don

So, long story short, i wish i could save everyone and the world, but i recognize and realize

Monday, August 4, 2008
Meeting the Chief, Ob/Gyn, Setswanan Formalities
First, we had to obtain 3 copies of a written statement from the University of Botswana to distribute to appropriate council personnel to officially allow us to work as students in the Mmopane community, which is about 15 minutes south of Gaborone. So in Molepolole, we drove around looking for the building which housed the deputy secretary council and matron to drop off our written statements. Mma Shaibu explained how the Setswana way includes many long-drawn out, elaborate steps to accomplish certain tasks, such as obtaining permission for students to work in community clinics. Unfortunately, our written statement failed to mention the dates when we will be working at this clinic. Therefore, Mma Shaibu could not leave the statement with the officials until the dates were entered. A verbal agreement or handwritten agreement did not suffice. Therefore, she decided that she'd return to UB and re-type the statement and fax it to the appropriate people, upon which she will receive a fax'ed document stating that Yana and I have been given permission to work in Mmopane (a completely different town). Needless to say, formalities were endless and out of respect we certainly obliged.
After dealing with the paperwork and chasing councilmen, we decided to pay a visit to the newly built Scottish Memorial Hospital in Molepolole. Mind you, this hospital was exquisite. The interior was more spacious than HUP. We first met the Chief Medical Officer of the hospital who set up a meeting with the matrons (the administrative nursing personnel). We learned that the four nurses who were running the nursing department were transferred (not by choice) from Gabs to Molepolole. We found it very interesting to find that nurses and other “civil service” personnel in Botswana are allowed zero input when discussing job placements and specialty areas. The ministry decides who and what skills are needed at a specific location or site and will send registered professionals to these sites. If one refuses, he/she must resign.
Then we had a tour of the facility. We had time for 4 units – pediatrics, psychiatry, maternity/neonatal, accidents and emergency (ER). Of the 4, I liked seeing the maternity ward. First of all, this ward was huge. It had about 5 different wings or bays, I couldn’t even keep count. Each area of the ward was divided into different care areas, somewhat similar to HUP. I was really interested in seeing the premature babies because in my pediatric clinical, the NICU was my favorite experience. So we were introduced to the OBGYN who explained that most deliveries are done by midwives (!) and the most common pregnancy complication was pre-eclampsia. He went on to explain that a few years ago the survival rate for the premature infants was around 50%. Recently, after changing a few things such as monitoring women at risk for preterm labor and closely following feeding protocols to increase weight of the premies after birth, the survival rate was significantly improved. I found this to be really telling because a few alterations in their approach to care had a significant impact. The nurse and ob/gyn explained that when people are trained in specialty areas, they bring back their expertise and they’re able to improve their health outcomes; however, training of nurses in specialty areas is not a common practice here in Botswana as I mentioned above. This really speaks to the impact that nurses have on health outcomes for patients.
After we concluded our mini-tour of this elaborate facility, we drove to Mmopane, the town in which Yana and I will be participating in home-based care. We had to obtain permission from the town’s chief before providing any type of care or simply being present in the community and interacting with the people. The meeting with the chief entailed sitting in the chief’s office for about 3 minutes. This jovial man, serving as the deputy chief (the real chief’s grandson), told us we were welcome to work in the community. After this good news, we left the community and drove back to Gaborone.
Identity, Trotting at Arne's Horse Safari, Bull and the Bush, Goats and Sheep and Baboons, Oh My!

Trotting!: So, while 4 students (Michelle, yana, jenny, and caitlin) went to camp at the Khalahari Desert this weekend, Jody, Komal, Ginna, Andrea and I went to (and got lost on our way driving) Arne's Horse Ranch out in BFE (email me if you don't know that acronym). We took jody's little rental car (her land rover is kaput for a while), on some dirt road and finally found it. We were instantly welcomed by two native Zimbabweans, one of whom used to be a Jockey in South Africa and was our tour guide, named Ron. His face was covered with fresh, sun-induced freckles, and had the smile of a cheshire cat. His accent was mesmerizing, and, me being the beginner horse-rider, gave me Classic, the painted horse who is good with all the novices. Classic and I took an instant liking to each other, after i learned to gently squeeze my calves to get him going, and gently pull the reins left or right for direction of forward travel. We jaunted on our horses through the desert of Kopong, running in to random wild goats, mules, cattle, and saw some "authentic" african hut villages (not to be understood as the white man going in to an african village to see africans in their "natural" setting. i just didn't kn

Bull and the Bush: So, there is this English pub, down some DIRT road we had to taxi to, in the middle of nowhere, and it's huge and it turns into a club after 10pm or so. the four of us go there to eat a late dinner. this was a nice epilogue to our long day on horses and some naptime back home. i got some hella good pizza, fed some HELLA cute stray cats, met up with our german friend Nicola (with whom i speak HELLA german!), and had a blast. Meine Familie soll wissen, dass Nicola ist viel spass, und spreche ich viel von meine Omi wen kommt aus Bremen! Ich Liebe die Deutschen! After kicking it there, we went back home and crashed....
Baboons!: OMG....so on our way running errands today, Jody was driving our car and just as we turned down a road, she was like "Look! A monkey! Do you want me to turn around (following by a prompt U-turn)...ok, here we go!". It was amazing. i got video a tons of pics of these random baboons, about 5 of them, roaming the highway of gaborone near Game City, scouring for any trace of food or water. we drove around in circles, following them for a while and loved it. Wow, the clash between urban sprawl and desert wilderness is more-than-apparent here on the paved Gaborone roadways.....
Friday, August 1, 2008
I am the lucky one.
I loved it. Lucky is what I've felt all along my journey to Botswana. I was lucky to have been chosen by Penn to come to Botswana. Yes, we've had some problems this first week - getting housing settled at the University of Botswana, getting in to our selected clinical sites - but all eight of us agree that we are incredibly lucky to have Jodi as our instructor here. She's been working tirelessly to make sure that we all get the best clinical experiences possible; there'd be some pretty desperate-feeling nursing students here if Jodi wasn't here to help us get settled.
I'm also feeling lucky to have these amazing group of students with me. Everyone has brought unique perspectives and experiences with them to Africa; so far we've been able to share those experiences with each other in a pretty constructive way. If someone has a frustrating day, or sees some things that are difficult to stomach or even comprehend - so far the group has been able to pull together, to listen to each other, and to support each other. Tonight we sat around talking about HIV treatment and ARV regimens, and why some patients have a difficult time adhering to those treatments. We've gotten angry together over the way standards of patient care vary here from the standard of care that patients might receive in the States. We've stayed up late talking with each other about life, love, and other matters of nursing.
So it's true - I do feel like I am the lucky one, with these opportunities, these mentors, and these friends. Let's hope the luck continues.
Healthcare Work and Reproductive Rights
They separate males and females in the wards cuz of privacy issues, cuz they don't have the funds or resources for private rooms for procedures.
For all of you Peds and Gyn Lovers:
Antioxidant Peanut Butter and Identity
So, check out this video: It's ALL about PB made here...
So, this store, called Identity, had some HEINOUS, heterosexist advertisements in the window, so I HAD to take pics (btw, "heterosexist" isn't registering as a word in my spellcheck on this computer. Someone call Webster please)
Here it is! BOOOO to gender stereotypes in this country! Makes me SAD :(
At least the Mannequins were HOT and multi-racial! YAY!
Perceptions of poverty
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Planning and Executing!
Today was an exciting day for me. The past few days Jodi, our instructor, has been working hard to set up our clinical sites and get us started but, like I said earlier, things move slowly here. Today however, some of us went back to the Kamogelo Day Care Centre, which Derek described in the previous blogs (with the awesome pictures and video of kids dancing), and talked to Father Tony about how we can be most helpful to the community. He told us about a sewing project they have set up for the community where they provide sewing machines (with donated money) and teach the locals how to sew; this way they can then sell the clothes they make and feel ownership over a newfound talent… I wish I could sew! Some other projects include finding a way to get water to some remote villages (digging underground for wells), buying chickens for a few families to use for eggs and eventually to sell, and building rooms or roofs onto homes so that their aren’t 8 people in a small room – one can imagine how that cannot be healthy. It was an incredible experience just to witness how this type of work can be set up for students and volunteers. Conversations like the one we had today is vital around the world; as cheesy as it sounds, helping one another is the best thing we can do. Next week, we will teach the teachers at the Day Care about CPR, the Heimlich Maneuver, and basic first aide, like what to do when a child gets a cut or has ringworm. We will also do physical assessments on the children, and record their health info so that in the future, they have a baseline to compare to. In my experience, organization in many countries with needs secondary to poverty and inadequate healthcare is hard to come by, so we were all incredibly excited when Father Tony was so accommodating for us to come and help in any way we could. I can’t wait to get involved in these projects!
Bean Leaves and Duck-Duck-Goose, Of Hippie Beliefs and African HIV Politics, MDR and XDR
Bean Leaves/DDG: So, you'll have to check out some of the videos i posted on here, but this night was incredible. The University of Botswana had some international student orientation business (which none of us Penn nurses attended cuz we slept in too late still adjusting from jet-lag! :-)), but we were still invited to the "traditional botswanan dinner" out in some village on tuesday night. First of all, this "village" they spoke of was deceiving: i was thinking it was going to be out in some hut and all, but this woman's house was POSH. it was like a mansion out on some farm, with an outdoors area for all the students to sit and eat and talk. After introductions of about 30+ international students, we formed a long line buffet style for dinner. It was not that good, but i was really happy to experience a traditional dinner. And there was this alcoholic drunk mexican who kept interrupting introductions...so short story: The introductions included name and favorite drink, so when it got to the mexican PH student in the circle, and he said "tequila", the drunken mexican guy was like "Ehhhh!!!! TEQUILA!!! Corona!? Mi amigo!" and it was hilarious. the shy germans were very put off but it was a good time, and it wasn't til later that the host (big african woman in red in the first pic) announced that he was her husband! We had a LONG laugh about that and continued to enjoy our meals...(my favorite part being the bean leaves which were hella salty, mixed with the white BLAND-ASS sorghum which is what the states uses to feed livestock!)
Pic 1: The meal (clockwise from the bread): Bread biscuits, bean leaves and veggies (REALLY salty), some small portion of meat i accidentally grabbed, white corn/sorghum stuff that is apparently fed to livestock in the states (it was incredibly bland and tasted a bit like plastic), semp or kemp or something high in fiber that they feed to malnourished kids here, and some sweet sauce thing that i dipped the bread in.
Pic 2: Ginna and Andrea's response to the meal provided above, lol
Pic 3: Komal and I havin' a grand time singing.
Video 1: The host is on the right, dancing and singing, and two other students, from UBotswana but who studied in the states for one year are on the left, singing at dancing as well. we are all clapping along to the beat:)
After dinner, we sat around and got taught traditional setswana dance and song, and it was KICK ASS. there were probably 5 botswanan students who just got back from studying in the states for one year, mainly at Kalamazoo College in Michigan (WTF!?), and they took trips to CA and their favorite place was (drumroll please....) San Francisco, DUH! she said she loved it, and they all clung to be instantly. obviously, me, the californian who loves SF and we hit it off. it was fun....then we played games. and we played this version of Duck-Duck-Goose and it was SO FUN! kinda random, but after they (the hosts) were all done showing us games and songs, they asked us if we had anything to teach them. One of the germans (random) taught everyone "if you're happy and you know it..." so we had a grand ol time shakin our booties to that. after like 5 hours of playing, we finally left on the trip back home in the Combi van seating 15 or so of us. crazy...everytime we go somewhere, i think we're gonna get taken off to some slaughterhouse like in hostel, lol.......thanks for making me worry dad! ;-)
Video #2: Follow-the-Leader Type dance, i am at the end in my red sweatshirt, peacing out at the end of the line...
Hippie Beliefs/HIV Politics: So, i don't have any pics of my instructor, Jodi, yet, but i wanted to talk about her for a bit. Jodi, Jenny, and I visited Mallach house yesterday, which is a house that Penn owns that houses all the visiting MDs when they come to work here every couple months. In the car ride back from Mallach House, i was asking Jodi about HIV and the politics and she is EXACTLY like me: she was basically saying how here, adults don't get put on ART (Anti-Retroviral Therapy to control their HIV) until they are "really sick", as in stage 4 HIV, which is classified as progression from HIV to AIDS, and their CD4 counts are as low as 0-4. I got enraged, and so did Jodi. She prefaced this conversation
(Both sides of the debate: FOR abstinence: http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Against Abstinence (this video kills me): http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Make your own decision!)
So, Jodi and I went back and forth agreeing with each other for a while, and how POOR the policies the Bush Administration has administered are regarding abstinence-only education, and the Global Gag Order..
(Against: http://www.commondreams.org/
http://www.bayswan.org/
For it: I couldn't find any official sites FOR it...how funny....google is pretty good at finding stuff too!)
...which mandates anti-abortion policies for clinics in Africa receiving US Aide, which leads to abortions being performed illegally and incorrectly, leading to poor women's health. Ugh, anyways, it was amazing to know that this awesome instructor of our's shares nearly the same opinions on all subjects related to our trip here! Jodi ROCKS!
MDR/XDR: So, Jenny and I met with a nurse and an MD from the HIV/TB clinic where we'll be working for the next 4 weeks, yesterday. They said we'll be in contact with MDR/XDR (Multi-Drug Resistant and Extensively Drug Resistant) Tuberculosis. Ugh.....i was so intrigued and kinda scared, but this is the kinda work i wanna do. Once i told them i used to counsel people in STIs and sexual health, the nurse piped up and was like "we could use you at the clinic to counsel new patients who have seroconverted (HIV- to HIV+, new status), because the first step is counseling the patients about safe sex and HIV prevention (Um, HI. My name is derek, and that is my specialty!). At first, they were both apprehensive to have students at this busy clinic of their's, but after seeing how excited we were when we met with them at Mallach House, they were fine. I will be working there M, Tu, Th from 7:30-4ish, racking up clinical hours, but moreso racking up experience. Every other week Jenny and I will be switching off between the HIV portion/management of the clinic and the TB portion. Then, the last week we're here, we'll be doing outpatient visits to/from people's houses, who have TB, which is awesome. There is also the option of flying up to the NE border of Botswana/Zimbabwe and working with Zimbabwean refugees from the civil war there from the election, cuz there is apparently NO food and killings and lots of IDPs (Internally Displaced Persons), but some of the other girls wanna do that. While i would LOVE to do that and help with aide, house-building/shelter/food and healthcare, but i'll stick to my HIV/TB clinics, as that most pertains to my future as an HIV/ID NP.
Pic to the right: Yana, Andrea, and I making dinner in the dorm and getting ready to see the Dark Knight at the local cinemas!
Monday, July 28, 2008
Love made visible
The note was all the more poignant at the very end of the night. As we were leaving, we mentioned that we were nursing students. The server stopped cold. "I'm glad you are here. Our people are dying." He went on to tell us that his cousin had just died; he was going to her funeral in a few days.
We were all humbled by what he said. On the way home that night, we talked about how interesting it is that wherever we go around the world, we tell people that we are becoming nurses, and they are suddenly willing to open up to us about the most intimate parts of their lives. In my opinion, that trust is one of the best parts about this profession.
Love, made visible.
Kamogelo Daycare Center
Most of the 6 and 7 year olds speak some english, and taught me their names. The one in the beanie in the pictures was one of my favorites, named Okaf. Another girl, not pictured, whose name was Amakgala, was also one of my favorites. They loved my shaved head, my tattoos on my feet (see pics below), and absolutely LOVED my digital camera to see themselves on it! they went crazy. we played with them mostly after lunchtime, which consisted of beans and semp (some type of veggie stuff) porridge, high in protein. I was ecstatic to have this experience, which had nothing to do with our clinical experience, because i will be mainly working with adults. We left after an hour of playing to go to the mall (weird transition) to get lunch, grocery-shop, browse, and.....
Pic #1: Kids playing around and singing with the teachers in traditional Setswana tongue....they were so happy!
Pic #5: We were all showing how old we were on our hands and fingers....most were 6 or 7, i was apparently 10.
Pic #7: they don't see boys often, so when a "strong" boy comes around, they flex and grab the boy's arm muscles, and hang off of him. you can kind of see it here, but behind the front row of boys, there's a couple boys grabbing onto my bicep as i flexed for them! it was cute!
Pic #8: Kgale hill behind me. it's famous, but apparently forbidden to tourists now due to high rates of mugging. i won't be venturing up there...
Video #1: kids dancing around when we arrived, it was amazing to see. check out the kid in the front, shakin his booty to the rhythm! awesome moves bud!
Botswana Days 2 and 3
Globalization: It is so weird. There are poor people everywhere, people riding in cars with 12-14 people were van (not enough seats), people trying to sell things on the street in the HIGH UV indexed sun with signs that read "talk to me", meanwhile those who have money go to the Riverwalk mall, where there is a 4-theatre cinema playing Dark Knight, WallE, Hancock, and Wanted (all new movies!), places to buy imported smoked salmon, ALL electronics needs (like a HUGE warehouse best buy, called "Game"), and high-class dinners and lunches served to those willing to foot the bill. Last night, we went out to Dinner at Primi, this awesome Italian Restaraunt, with the 8 students and our instructor, Jodi (who rocks cuz she knows SO much about botswana!). I ordered a HUGE serving of Frutti di Mare seafood pasta, and 4 dark chocolate brownies with cream/ice cream for dessert and it cost me 90 Pula, and it's about 6.75 Pula = $1, so it was about $15, which was NOT BAD. i was so surprised. After spending a good 3+ hours there, our waiter, Timothy, (pronounced Te-mo-tay) wanted a picture with us, so we took one with him and promised to get a developed photo back to him. He spoke to a small group of us afterwards, and we told him we were nursing students and his response was almost heartwrenching: "Thank you, our people are dying of AIDS". You could see the humanity behind his dark brown eyes, this waiter, clad in a bright orange uniform with "Work is Love Made Visible", opening up to us as we give him his tip. Jodi, our instructor, was explaining that tips in Botswana usually are around 10%, which was like 90 Pula or $12, which wasn't a whole lot. She said she likes to give more because many of the service workers go home to places with no running water, none of the amenities that we are luxuriously granted at the dorms. Timothy said his cousin died of AIDS last week and that he is going to her funeral next week, that he is raising 3 kids at home and trying to save up to install running water and a water heater. this was a huge reality check for me, coming from America. I rag on America all the time, but i am realizing it COULD be worse. I mean, some things here are all "westernized": Ford dealership in the main downtown area, people driving Mercedes all over, traffic jamming the freeways during rush-hour, self-proclaimed hip-hop booths at the mall, etc. It's all very interesting and eye-opening. Basically, White = Money = Power, and it's more apparent here than anywhere else i have seen.
IDCC: So, we are here for my community clinical experience for nursing at Penn. I will be working with one other student at the Infectious Disease Control Center clinic near the Princess Marina Hospital. Supposedly, 70% of patients have HIV with 50% of those co-infected with TB. The hospital doesn't turn any patients away, so there are apparently many people lying on the ground, some dying, and it can get very intense, from what i've heard.

Pic 2: Best sign ever! They have these random postings about healthcare all over campus, and of course, this is my favorite one! There is another one about Cervical Cancer and Testicular Cancer screening for students, which we don't have anything like on Penn's campus or any campuses in america!
Pic #3: I hate to get political in my postings, but EVERYONE here wants Obama to win. I have seen 4 guys wearing Obama shirts already here, and this awesome bumper sticker with the "O" as a globe! UH!!! I mean, Obama has heritage from Kenya, so the whole african continent wants him, as well as all of us, so we were HELLA excited to see Obama supporters here!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The first 12 hours!
I suppose I should back up for a second and explain.
We arrived late last night, exhausted from over 24 hours of transit. There was some confusion over rooms and room keys, but finally most of us got settled in. We were lucky to meet some fellow international students who were living in the dorms as well; they did an amazing job helping us get oriented to the area - they even invited us out for the night. Despite being unshowered and road-weary, a few of us decided to venture out with them, and miraculously made it until about 4am.
A few of the our new friends were telling us about the children they had been working with in a settlement called Old Naledi. The settlement is the poorest and largest in Gaborone, and we heard reports that the HIV rate is over 90% there. Our fellow students invited us to come visit - to attend a church service with them the following morning.
So we got up with just a few hours of sleep, put on our Sunday best - something I haven't done in ages - and hopped the crowded combi busses for the edge of town. When we got to Old Naledi, our student friends took us to visit some of the homes of the kids they have been working with. Little by litte, young children started to gather around us. A little girl walked over to me, looked up at me with her big brown eyes, and gave the international symbol for "please pick me up."
After we gathered a number of kids, holding our hands and riding on our shoulders and hips, we headed to the church - a tiny, double-wide trailor on a large empty lot.
I sat with that little girl on my lap during the entire church service. Without a stethoscope, I could hear that she had an intense respiratory infection - the wheezing was just that loud. I hugged her tightly as we listened to the sermon and I could actually feel the crepitus from her lungs. I wondered about the type of medical care that was available to children like her. How could she get the help she needed? Are there antibiotics? Could her mother afford them for her? I spent half of the service patting the little girl on the back with my cupped hands, respiratory-PT style, while these questions were brewing in my mind.
I'd love to come back and work with some of the families in Old Naledi. The great news is I think I may be able to - one of our clinical sites, the Holy Cross Hospice, is located in this settlement. I won't know until later in the week at the earliest about my placement, so for now I'm left with a lot of questions... and a vague understanding that there is work to be done here, if we can find a way to do it.
We're HERE!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Our first adventure...
It all started a few days after our meeting with our clinical instructor. Jenny was browsing the Craigslist "Free Stuff" postings earlier this week, and she came across a posting for "Free Medical Supplies."
She got in touch with a woman who said they had "cotton balls and gauze" and some other things. Envisioning a few small boxes of supplies, I picked Jenny up early on Thursday morning, and we headed towards the heart of West Kensington to go pick them up. (For those of you not familiar with Kensington, it's perceived as one of the poorest, most dangerous neighborhoods in the city of Philadelphia.)
Once we got the the address, we realized we had been directed to Prevention Point , a non-profit organization that focuses it's efforts on injection drug users and sex workers. The organization runs the only clean-needle exchange program in the city; they also run a drop-in center and help connect their clients to vital services like HIV testing and drug rehabilitation services.
The employees were excited to see us. They were working on cleaning out their storage room, and wanted to get rid of boxes of extra supplies that had been laying around for a long time.
We were shocked when they showed us all of the stuff that they no longer had a need for. Cases of gauze, cotton balls, syringes, medical tape, gloves. They gave us a hand truck and told us we were welcome to whatever we wanted.
Jenny and I were completely wowed by their generosity. In my experience, I've had a hard time getting medical supplies donated from the huge University of Pennsylvania Health System, but here we were in the basement of a Kensington non-profit, filling up my car. It was hard not to laugh at the irony.
The moral of this story is: We now have a TON of medical supplies - everything from gauze 4x4s and 2x2s to respirator masks and urine sample cups - to bring with us to Botswana. All we'll need to get are more gloves and hand sanitizer, and I think we'll be all set!
Two weeks to go!
This week we began the lecture portion of N340, Community Health Nursing. While our classmates started their Community Health clinical rotations, the students going to Botswana have Tuesday and Thursday clincal days off for the next few weeks.
We're not worried though - with three clinical days a week (instead of the standard two), we'll more than make up for lost time when we start at our clinical sites in Gabarone.
We also were fortunate to meet our clinical instructor this week - the School of Nursing brought her out from Oregon spefically to meet us and the other course faculty. She's had a lot of expereince working in Botswana, and she seems as excited as we are for the experience. I think she's going to be a great resource for us.
That is vital, considering we're heading to a place where resources of all kinds can be scarce. Case in point: in our meeting, one of the things we discused was the possiblity that some of our clinical sites will probably be low on vital supplies like gloves and bandages. Our instructor suggested that we bring our own gloves and big bottles of hand sanitizer.
We're entertaining the idea of reaching out to friends and family in a sort of mini-fundraiser, in order to purchase extra supplies to take with us and leave at our clinical sites. More on that soon!